Never the Perfect Time
I never thought that in this age and stage of life, I would be launching a music career. If you had told me that years ago, I probably would have laughed. I always assumed that any success I had in the public eye would happen when I was young, fresh, vibrant, and full of new energy and free time. But that wasn’t my story.
I guess you can say that I’ve always been a late bloomer. It’s been comforting to learn that I am not the only one in this position. Vera Wang did have her first runway show until she was 40. Julia Child started her cooking show at 50. Who’s to say that we must all peak at 27? I mean, after all, what would we do with the rest of our lives?
Another misconception is that there is a perfect time for everything. I wouldn’t say that there is a perfect time. I believe there is God’s perfect timing and that rarely aligns with what we think the perfect time should be. I have often questioned God’s timing because He seems to work at what appears to be my worst time, but I have learned that when it’s His timing the details get worked out in spite of me. I just need the next steps and some courage.
A quote from one of my favorite books says, “Don’t wait for perfect. Go ugly early.” And while that concept may be scary, the point is that you can spend a lot of time trying to perfect something and it can either become an idol or it never is birthed into existence. Our pride gets in the way. Now, please don’t get me wrong. I believe in doing everything with excellence, but there is a time to say, “Ok, this is as good as it’s going to get,” and let it go.
When I released “In the Wait” in June, you would have thought that it came from some victorious moment of joy and all the stars aligning, but the truth is that I have been processing a lot of anger and grief in this season. On the outside, it appears as a well executed launch of a long awaited song, and the opportunity to use my gift of songwriting in a public way. But this wasn’t born out of a perfect or even joyous season. It was formed in fire and launched at a very emotionally low point for me. So, it just goes to show that God’s timing is perfect.
About a year ago, the Lord asked me to say a big “YES” to Him. I thought that I had already said lots of big yes’s, but clearly there was more. I agreed, but asked the Lord to align me with the right people and resources to make it happen and boy has He ever! You see, God doesn’t leave us in the dark and He honors obedience.
Is it time to say you own big “YES” to God? Don’t be afraid. You are safest with Him. (Trust me. I know!)